i fear that being neurotic about physical things doesn't actually stop you from causing yourself problems it just makes you regret it more when you do

normal person: thing 👍 works 👍
me: this Thing is but one of several compromised versions of the Idealised Thing between which i have had to choose based on 12 different equally sacred criteria. and i chose Wrong and now must forever atone

i fear my relationship to objects sometimes resembles borderline personality disorder