is it possible to have a fever so mild that it makes you slightly manic and uncomfortable but otherwise you function completely normally and don't really notice you're ill asking for a friend

‪jesus christ i think i understand what asymptomatic infection is now‬

‪i guess that might answer the question of why i'm not sure if i've ever had covid‬

‪for the record the most clear symptoms are:‬

‪- ears feel kinda… warm?‬
‪- ears feel wrong‬
‪- sense of body temperature is off a bit but it's weird, i'm not sure if i'm too warm or too cold‬
‪- somewhat suppressed appetite‬
‪- probably disturbed sleep but i wouldn't have noticed‬

‪forehead feels warmer to me than normal but not outrageously so‬

‪okay it does feel like my brain is on fire but like if the gain on this was attenuated so low that it's hard to tell it apart from the noise floor does that make sense at all. very strange phenomena‬

‪imagine seymour's wife yelling in steamed hams but she's so quiet as to almost be inaudible, and the show is just overall very very slightly uneven in saturation‬

when did i get this good at visual metaphors, something broke in me in the last year or two clearly

‪describing this as “broken” is an interesting choice but i'm not meaning it negatively exactly, i just assume there's some flipside to it. maybe what i'm saying is that the strands of the chord that tethers me to “reality” are fraying more than ever and that's unlocking things‬

you know, that should have been spelled “cord”, but let's go with “chord”. yeah, some notes are falling out of the harmony. i don't know what i'm losing from that, only what i'm gaining, for now

‪when the fuck did i become able to write like that what the fuck it's more than a little bit otherworldly‬

‪i don't know. i feel like something's happening to me but so far i'm just enjoying life more and cannot tell you what it is. but it's like. suddenly levelling up my prophetic wording stat feels very suspicious to me‬

‪like, stuff like “brilliant moment of shining clarity” just comes to me spontaneously now. the “weave of fate” feels like it has a serious and dramatic innebörd above just a flowery metaphor. and other such examples. the “falling into the sky” bit feels larger than life…‬