‪that's part of what i meant when i wrote https://hikari.noyu.me/blog/2023-11-26-this-world-is-beautiful-and-we-must-protect-it.html‬

‪how did i become like this. how?‬

‪i think the pandemic may have been one of those events that, if it doesn't kill you, it drives you insane, and maybe that's what happened to me, but in a good way‬

‪sitting in a seat and staring out the normal window is meditative in its own way. the constant noise and rumble, the reflection in the reflection, the chromatic aberration. this will make me a shoegazer yet‬

‪there is something in this i could make something great with but it would need 3d art skills i do not have… yet?‬